round and round we go..

omg!


so.. you would think, "pay day" being a day of celebratory dance!
in fact, it's more of a day of handing large corporations your hard earned money. these conglomerates suck you dry of money, each bill has a service fee, an account number, an automated service that you have to hassle with.. an exhausting effort to get a straight answer, then the incompetent people you have to speak with.. granted they are hard working people too but come on! the trick is, these companies use these people to do their dirty work (the run around).. "oh, you have to speak to communications, here's their number." or "you have to wait 7 to 10 business days for this.." or "as a customer courtesy to you we will refund you this amount.."

time and time again, i run into the same issues..

my co-workers can testify that they hear me month after month after month with the same people, verizon, verizon wireless (oh there's a difference!), bank of america!
and im tired.. tired of being shafted with my own money.

between us

there's something there wedged in between us that wasn't there before..
i want to make it better.

talk to me.

hope

hope n 1. a feeling that what is wanted will happen. 2. a person or thing on which one may base some hope

carebear costume

so, i have decided to be the carebear cousin, brightheart raccoon!

i redesigned the belly, im going to print it on fabric and then sew the belly onto an oversized sweatshirt. then cut out the mask and just paint that.. any suggestions would be cool.

the huge obstacle is the sweatshirt being $45! thanks american apparel, thanks a lot!

here's a quick mockup of what it should look like, i will be wearing my purple tights instead.

spontaneity

i drove out to harrisonburg with my best friend to see our friend play in the jazz band, snarky puppy! i hadnt seen mike league since we graduated from high school 6 years ago. reunions are sweet! :]

the best thing i ever done for myself is to get up and go, not even thinking.. just going. and i had the time of my life!

granted, i'm on 1 hour of sleep, my body aches from dancing and from attempting to sleep in the car and a bit hungover still and sitting at work, i had a blast! i wouldnt have done anything differently.

...and god knows i needed this!

not cutout for this..

i could do me, i could do that for days..
but now it seems i've lost a grip on myself.
just for love.

my fear of jumping in has come back.. but im already in.

.. and rightfully so.

even though i did everything right, it wasnt enough.
when i thought i could expose my under belly, i was wrong....AGAIN..

silly me.

i absolutely love...

matt!