the end of an era!

so today was my last day at the ocho!

i made a good career discussion for myself, thats for sure. its just hard sometimes when you have made a home somewhere and made friends & family there. i almost felt as if 3 weeks was two long, i much rather ripped it off like a band-aid.

it was only a year and 4 months but it felt like so long. i have learned so much and accomplished so much in such a short amount of time there. i most certainly am sad that things didnt work out as i expected them originally but im excited for my new opportunities at vcu! i can go get my masters for free for example.. wric couldnt have offered me a free education.

bummer: fsa (flexible spending account)
i have well over $400 left over, i have until the end of today to claim it, that means i have to spend that amount and then fax over a claim form to them otherwise that money is all theirs.. does anyone have that kind of money to spend on over the counter medications, perscriptions, etc. all today? if so, let me know.. cuz i dont.

ps. never doing fsa ever again, i want that money in my pocket.. where it should be, thank you very much! pppshhh..

so im at home now, after my last day with my purse filled with crap off my desk and brownies and flowers by my side that i got from camille. im tempted to put on pj's and lay in bed watching a movie and napping. then another part of me wants to drink a beer and celebrate.

steer clear

steer clear of heartache

is that a possible task to undertake?
if so, i want that map.





in hopes to avoid future heartache, that is...

i have been cutting out the poison in my life, learning to separate myself from those who dont contribute anything but heartache in my life. and keep those who have positive energy and that genuinely care for me around. it sounds like an easy task, but its not. we all want to give people chances to redeem themselves in hopes they prove us wrong. but time and time again, i kick myself for giving her far too many opportunities to hurt me.

drea's going away..

it was hard to see her go...its like ripping off a band-aid, gotta do it quickly.i only knew andrea for a month, but i feel like i have known her so much longer.she's an amazing woman, and i know we will be friends forever! she's the best person i know!


bff's all the way around.


scrabble bff's!!
H4 + A1 = <3

:'[

i live for..

what you want from me.. i can never give.

lyrics that ring very true to me.

i dont practice anymore, but i went to a christian sermon this past sunday with my mom. and for the first time, i have come to a realization. that doesn't happen very often, especially in organized religion (at least for me), that i can come away from it with a real message that rings true to me..

at any rate.. they were basically talking to us (women) about how we are cursed since adam & eve with the desire to be loved by our husbands/boyfriends and to be approved by them. but as soon as we are securely fasten - what have you.. you want them to return the same desire of approval to you. and therefore, expect so much in return.

perhaps, the love i crave can not be satisfied with a person at all, but in numbers of people that contribute positively to my life.

why am i waiting for something spectacular to happen to me? but what i tend to forget it, life is happening right now! and believe it or not, things spectacular happen everyday.. that i dumb down becuz i want something like love to sweep me off my feet.. or some shit like that. and in all honesty, i know the world we live in, it wont happen. and even if it does, it wont last like i'd want it to.

making up for lost time

ooo.. richmond summers. how i love you.
i have spent too many years, just staying in. now its my turn to go out and enjoy myself. my lack of money makes it hard.

i just met drea this summer and it breaks my heart becuz she's leaving. everyone is moving on and out. how long will i be in richmond? after i got back from california a month back, i realized how much i am not done with richmond. i gave myself a year to get myself to san francisco..

..but nothing is certain.

nothing ever is.

to friend or not to friend

do you ever wonder why you are friends with certain people?

time and time again you are let down by them but you keep coming back for more...
is it the longevity of the relationship or the love that's just not going to go away no matter how burned you get..?

it baffles me, how thick my skin has become over the years.

*sigh* oh wells.. they know where to find me when they need me.