between us

there's something there wedged in between us that wasn't there before..
i want to make it better.

talk to me.

hope

hope n 1. a feeling that what is wanted will happen. 2. a person or thing on which one may base some hope

carebear costume

so, i have decided to be the carebear cousin, brightheart raccoon!

i redesigned the belly, im going to print it on fabric and then sew the belly onto an oversized sweatshirt. then cut out the mask and just paint that.. any suggestions would be cool.

the huge obstacle is the sweatshirt being $45! thanks american apparel, thanks a lot!

here's a quick mockup of what it should look like, i will be wearing my purple tights instead.

spontaneity

i drove out to harrisonburg with my best friend to see our friend play in the jazz band, snarky puppy! i hadnt seen mike league since we graduated from high school 6 years ago. reunions are sweet! :]

the best thing i ever done for myself is to get up and go, not even thinking.. just going. and i had the time of my life!

granted, i'm on 1 hour of sleep, my body aches from dancing and from attempting to sleep in the car and a bit hungover still and sitting at work, i had a blast! i wouldnt have done anything differently.

...and god knows i needed this!

not cutout for this..

i could do me, i could do that for days..
but now it seems i've lost a grip on myself.
just for love.

my fear of jumping in has come back.. but im already in.

.. and rightfully so.

even though i did everything right, it wasnt enough.
when i thought i could expose my under belly, i was wrong....AGAIN..

silly me.

i absolutely love...

matt!

the end of an era!

so today was my last day at the ocho!

i made a good career discussion for myself, thats for sure. its just hard sometimes when you have made a home somewhere and made friends & family there. i almost felt as if 3 weeks was two long, i much rather ripped it off like a band-aid.

it was only a year and 4 months but it felt like so long. i have learned so much and accomplished so much in such a short amount of time there. i most certainly am sad that things didnt work out as i expected them originally but im excited for my new opportunities at vcu! i can go get my masters for free for example.. wric couldnt have offered me a free education.

bummer: fsa (flexible spending account)
i have well over $400 left over, i have until the end of today to claim it, that means i have to spend that amount and then fax over a claim form to them otherwise that money is all theirs.. does anyone have that kind of money to spend on over the counter medications, perscriptions, etc. all today? if so, let me know.. cuz i dont.

ps. never doing fsa ever again, i want that money in my pocket.. where it should be, thank you very much! pppshhh..

so im at home now, after my last day with my purse filled with crap off my desk and brownies and flowers by my side that i got from camille. im tempted to put on pj's and lay in bed watching a movie and napping. then another part of me wants to drink a beer and celebrate.