i drove out to harrisonburg with my best friend to see our friend play in the jazz band, snarky puppy! i hadnt seen mike league since we graduated from high school 6 years ago. reunions are sweet! :]
the best thing i ever done for myself is to get up and go, not even thinking.. just going. and i had the time of my life!
granted, i'm on 1 hour of sleep, my body aches from dancing and from attempting to sleep in the car and a bit hungover still and sitting at work, i had a blast! i wouldnt have done anything differently.
...and god knows i needed this!
i could do me, i could do that for days..
but now it seems i've lost a grip on myself.
just for love.
my fear of jumping in has come back.. but im already in.
.. and rightfully so.
even though i did everything right, it wasnt enough.
when i thought i could expose my under belly, i was wrong....AGAIN..
silly me.
so today was my last day at the ocho!
i made a good career discussion for myself, thats for sure. its just hard sometimes when you have made a home somewhere and made friends & family there. i almost felt as if 3 weeks was two long, i much rather ripped it off like a band-aid.
it was only a year and 4 months but it felt like so long. i have learned so much and accomplished so much in such a short amount of time there. i most certainly am sad that things didnt work out as i expected them originally but im excited for my new opportunities at vcu! i can go get my masters for free for example.. wric couldnt have offered me a free education.
bummer: fsa (flexible spending account)
i have well over $400 left over, i have until the end of today to claim it, that means i have to spend that amount and then fax over a claim form to them otherwise that money is all theirs.. does anyone have that kind of money to spend on over the counter medications, perscriptions, etc. all today? if so, let me know.. cuz i dont.
ps. never doing fsa ever again, i want that money in my pocket.. where it should be, thank you very much! pppshhh..
so im at home now, after my last day with my purse filled with crap off my desk and brownies and flowers by my side that i got from camille. im tempted to put on pj's and lay in bed watching a movie and napping. then another part of me wants to drink a beer and celebrate.
steer clear of heartache
is that a possible task to undertake?
if so, i want that map.
in hopes to avoid future heartache, that is...
i have been cutting out the poison in my life, learning to separate myself from those who dont contribute anything but heartache in my life. and keep those who have positive energy and that genuinely care for me around. it sounds like an easy task, but its not. we all want to give people chances to redeem themselves in hopes they prove us wrong. but time and time again, i kick myself for giving her far too many opportunities to hurt me.
it was hard to see her go...its like ripping off a band-aid, gotta do it quickly.i only knew andrea for a month, but i feel like i have known her so much longer.she's an amazing woman, and i know we will be friends forever! she's the best person i know!
bff's all the way around.
scrabble bff's!!
H4 + A1 = <3
